Star struck

The moment Angela saw him for the first time she was floating. Enveloped in an air of joy and ecstasy around, her heart was jumping leaps and bounds. He was playing soccer with his friends. She had plans to watch a movie so she was waiting for her girlfriends in the shed next to the ground. For the first time in fifteen years of her existence she had Goosebumps for no reason and rhyme. Her friends came by, a few minutes later and they left but for the entire evening the guy in the white Tee was on her mind. The very next day she introduced the shed as the new hideout place to her girlfriends. And there started the customary cycle of spending evenings with a bunch of giggling chirping sixteen year old girls gossiping about anything and everything possible that might exist on the face of the earth. From the school studs, to discussions about so as to why violet is the new pink, to the upcoming rock concerts. Surrounded by everybody she glanced at him unperturbed. Each night in bed before drifting to sleep she spun into a number of stories about what might be a possible if he comes up to her and asks her name.

She was never a damsel and the days passed by, the routine continued and she was still shy. For her he was like the star, the one within her periphery of sight yet unattainable. His absence from the field for a few days made her sick to stomach and gave her sleepless nights. It was all sealed within her and she perfected how to hide her frown from her girlfriends around. Tranquil in her own thoughts she glided. Then finally came the day when after numerous sleepless nights and endless sessions of hopeless smiles he waved to her. She was frozen couldn’t even wave him back felt stupid and turned back. He came running up to her and introduced himself. Jason was his name he said and even the handshake made her shiver and freeze.

Later that evening they ended up going for a walk. It was like a dream come true, and for the days to come the soccer and the gossip sessions took a halt. She liked the cohesion of their interactions and ignored all his flaws.

She was closest to her star now; she could not thank God enough that unlike innumerous unfortunate ones her’s was within her reaches. All she had to do was to extend a hand and claim what she had been longing for all this time.

One day when Jason was on his knees, he proposed her and any doubt of disagreement was out of scene. She always fantasized this day, since she saw him for the first time; it was her persistent dream ever since that night. Here she stands today and just before giving the consent to this relation yet unnamed. She closed her eyes and a flashback rolled by, and all the time they spent together flashed in front of her eyes but, shell shocked she was that the dreamy memoirs were replaced by all his hidden flaws and their unspoken and unresolved arguments that always existed, which they both rarely admitted, for the first time.

Terrified! she opened her eyes. In years of their togetherness she never felt so uneasy before. It wasn’t the cold feet or the commitment jitters that made her say a “NO”. She was surprised at her own decision. On the way back home that evening she took the same path where they both walked hands in hands for the first time. She didn’t repent her decision and she still had the hopeless smile and in the moments of retrospection she realized that Jason was just a star for her which always seemed an unattainable conquest and now when she has “been there and done that” she was just humane to change her desires and dreams.

When September ends

We are miles apart

And distance is hard to chase,

Love still exists,

But expressions have changed.

Dreams are still delusional

but they cover up for my hidden cries well.

Tears have passed just as the days does,

But night still strangles me in the ties that never broke.

Those moments are the only source

of the worn out calm.

They call me crazy and never get that

this is just a cover,

The one to hide our dreams

our definition of the perfect world.

Maybe I'm not worth it

maybe I'm just the wrong one

But I'll grow and will surelywalk away

but will do it slow.

Cause one day we'll see the life roll,

And that day I just want to put on the perfect show.

Whose life is it, anyway?

Two weeks down my semester breaks while following the mundane routine of dabbling through a few blogs I came across an interesting video about “Suicide Tourism”. My curiosity accompanied with prescheduled nothingness took over and I spent next 2 hours googling the term that caught my attention ending up watching a movie on euthanasia directed by John Zaritsky. It was about Craig Ewart an American traveler to Switzerland who after paying a nonprofit organization”Dignitas” about 10,000 Swiss francs (about $8,300), drank a glass of water laced with sodium pentobarbital and died within 30 minutes. He had a motor neuron disease and thus under Swiss law had a right to kill himself.

Suicide tourism (sometimes called euthanasia tourism) is a form of tourism associated with the pro-euthanasia movement which organizes trips for potential suicide candidates in the few places where euthanasia is tolerated, in the hopes of encouraging the decriminalization of the practice in many parts of the world.

Though euthanasia is legal in Switzerland, Holland and Belgium. But the provision for foreign tourists to be assisted to commit the suicide on the criteria that “the person is terminally ill and suffers from an illness that inevitably leads to death, or from an unacceptable disability, and wants to end their life and suffering voluntarily” is served and promoted by just Switzerland. And Dignitas is the only organization in Switzerland that helps foreigners. The number of foreigners Dignitas helps each year—132 in 2007, compared to 91 in 2003—has increasingly left the Swiss uncomfortable with the country's growing reputation for "suicide tourism

Ever since a former journalist and human rights lawyer, Minelli founded Dignitas in Zurich in 1998 there has been a moral debate about euthanasia.

With time the term euthanasia has virtually abolished the term assisted suicide. Different ethical issues are at play when discussing euthanasia; those who are pro euthanasia believe that a terminally ill person has the right to seek the help of another for the purpose of helping that person to kill him or herself. Those who oppose euthanasia believe that more harm than good is gained by this practice. The meaning of euthanasia has been altered throughout the years; it once meant "good-death", but has now been corrupted to mean "mercy killing". The main question when debating euthanasia is not whether a person has the right to help another die, but whether a person who is terminally ill, believes that their life is worthless, who actively seeks help in committing suicide, and who is not suffering from depression, should have the right to request assistance in dying. The question of euthanasia is a question of choice and empowering people to have control over their bodies.
Opposition to euthanasia mainly comes from three different groups. Religious groups who oppose freedom of choice in abortion also oppose euthanasia. Medical associations who are dedicated to saving and extending lives feel uncomfortable helping people to end there. Others oppose euthanasia, as it is typically transient. Of those who try to kill themselves but are stopped, less than 4% go on to kill themselves in the next 5 years, and only 11% go on to kill themselves in the next 35.
But although depression and pain are treatable, tens of millions of people do not have access to adequate pain management. Many people do not have enough health care coverage to pay for the amount of drugs they would need to take to control the pain they feel Euthanasia, therefore is the most practical and logical solution for some people.
Euthanasia raises many ethical questions. One such question is whether or not the state has the right to deny one's wish to ask for another's assistance in suicide. AS for my opinion I do not believe that euthanasia is in any way unethical, but a humane solution for someone who is destined to live the rest of their life in pain and discomfort. It is more humane to allow someone to die surrounded by friends and family in a dignified manner, rather than being kept alive by a machine and surrounded by tubes.

Is evil the new good??

So again the days of unemployment has made me look forward to give rise to my literary instincts(sorry people this is a big word for me atleast for the next few centuries to come...)

Hmmm........m one of those boring people who does'nt really come up with something innovative ; out of the box ; "generation awakening" IDEAS......
but something thats constantly ringing a bell in my mind for past few days is definition of being GOOD...
ohk sheding away the junk i'm neglecting all the moral science lessons and value education classes so no honesty, non violence, patience, dilligence and blah blah is on cards..I'm talking about TRUE SENSE of being good.....to elaborate is it about cheating your parents and not getting caught, copying your projects and assignments without even giving chance to your teachers to raise a brow, flirting around with every person who hits on u or who u want to hit rather without letting any of them know about this exclusive quality of yours........???
so finally you are trying to get the new definition of the old prehistoric term....
Huh I'm basically writting this post jst to take out my anger and frustration of being BAD(mind u use of this term is trully based upon the modern usage and definitions)
So......here goes the story
I'm bad in worldly ways just because:-

1.I don't have a boyfriend...ohk dats not the issue issue is the rest of the world makes me compel that i have one for no rhymes and reasons....(This is my tag 1 to be bad)

2.I don't know how to cheat people around.........yeah i'm dumb enough to be courteous to every FRIEND(look m dumb m still calling all of those morons friends...huh )...ohk to comprehend it i'm an EMOTIONAL FOOL.

3.I'm straight and forward to people on their faces yes i commit the deadly sin mentioned in the 11th commendment to speak theTRUTH.......( a friend of mine was innovative enough to invent rather discover a new term for me SOCIALLY UNDERDEVELOPED)

4.I badbitch noooo people do'nt get confused this is not the sin the problem is my probability to get caught trapped in that few 250 acres( i know you might think thats not a small area but when in mody with 360 grls..<>....even this area looks small enough) is close to one.....(ohk as per my current records its 0.99.......huh why m i being modest congratulate me people it's 1)

5.I am wearing a sacshe these days termed "THE WORST PHASE OF MY LIFE" n trust me god has assured even a blind man is given the power to read it and settle all the scores with me.........noo don't worry even though we have'nt messed in the past here is a golden opportunity people come and find a new foe rather target....


6...So you people want more wow this is so goood are'nt these characterstics enough to prove to the world that i'm bad or you want more of ma genetical information spilled in front of you.......



As always what i can do except to hope that one day things will be better i'll be happier trust me in this much of agony the only person i feel like jerkin the head off is that stupid EVE......damm the adam....nops dammm the apple

Evaluate the evolution of transport

Year: 1990
A: I have a car.
B: I have one too.
Year: 2010
A: I have a car.
B: Huh I have two.
Once in every six months whenever the fuel prices hike from--tea time office discussions to late night living room contentions and in studio conversations to open to public polls all we hear is the burgeon on the excessive usage of fuel and its impact on economy and environment.
Unlike the various other countries round the globe usage of Public transport system in India is still considered for the underprivileged and unfortunate. Car pooling and using metros might be still options worth considering in the metropolitan cities but for a citizen of an average Indian city the very thought that his vehicle needs a repair on a WEEKDAY give him nightmares, reminding him of the sight of those long 10/12 seater minibuses christened as ‘tempos’, belching out smoke and noise, generally ferrying over a score of passengers, ensconced inside and clinging outside, and plying on the opposite lanes on various national highways.
But does a fact as interesting as one stated here that due to global warming Arctic ice is rapidly disappearing, and the region may have its first completely ice-free summer by 2040 or earlier will even bother that common man? In this wild race of development when we consider ourselves responsible enough to grow our horizons and expand our riches, we surely have forgotten our responsibility towards the planet. Nature is no longer of our concern, as humans – at least for a majority of humans that participate in today’s environmental meltdown, which has been burning (like the fuel in a combustion engine) for the past 100+ years. The modern citizen in today’s world has completely lost touch with the natural world which has groomed us, through evolution, for the past 100,000+ years. With the advent of the automobile, our current culture’s already corrupt relationship with nature reached a new level of ignorance. As a result of the ever expanding reach of personal automobiles, the environmental health of our planet has been irreversibly altered, along with the social, financial, and political attitude of our culture.
Horseless carriages, or ‘cars’ for short, have completely taken over our everyday lives. What was once a commodity is now looked at as a necessity? Everyone, it seems, has a car; or if not, they are working towards getting a car. It is virtually impossible to avoid the implications of personal car ownership; sounds, sights, smells, finances, attitudes, employment, and personal relationships are all adversely affected by the car. As an ‘advanced society’ compared to those without the technology that we currently posses, we have not advanced much from the original inception of a gas fed, steel bodied personal transport vehicle. In fact, our advancements are really more like the opposite – we are digressing from what should be our primary goal; to use technology to continually make life better, to make transport easier, to create more free time, to save money, to preserve the environment, etc.
To make room for everyone’s car, we have converted acres upon acres of what was once wilderness into parking lots, countless numbers of which have already long since been abandoned as weeds grow through the cracks in the concrete. We have streets that are too narrow for cars to drive on but are lined with parked cars. Car owners have been known to stress over parking spot availability when they come home from work. Parking spots in some congested cities can cost thousands of dollars a month; the price of which could easily pay for food/shelter for impoverished individuals around the world that most likely have never driven a car in the first place. We have multimillion dollar parking garages. We have specialized public servants that enforce parking regulations, being sure to financially punish anyone who has violated parking policy; not to mention the police officers that pull you over while driving. We take them everywhere with us: to work, to the grocery store, to the doctor, and even to the movies sometimes. There is, however, a group of people, who have realized the extent of which we have lost control of the metaphorical car that we call life and, who would like to drive out current policies and collectively try going down a different road.
There is no point in trying to accurately pinpoint exactly when our ancestors truly stopped caring for nature, it has happened. The current generational cycle that has been gradually sucking us farther into the oil black hole that is 2010, and beyond, started in the not-so-distant past, but it will end in the near future.
The big question that is seldom answered but often raised in the air conditioned households, offices and studios is-- where to start and how?
We are standing at a crossroad: in order to reduce our oil dependency and make our country climate smart, we have to change our ways of traveling. It is a fact that the future is on a track, and with public transport everyone can come along for the ride.
The advantages of resorting to an efficient public transport system and reducing
Individual vehicles would be:
(i) Less pollution, as the amount of smoke coming-out could be reduced and also global warming and climate changes could be reduced.
(ii) Lower number of vehicle son the roads, and reduction in the occurrence of accidents.
(iii) Traffic jams and congestions will come down saving precious time.
(iv) The oil import bill will come down drastically and also the pressure on foreign exchange reserves will come down.
Public transport is a way to travel in an environmental-friendly way and usage of public transport shouldn’t be seen as a stand-alone reform, but rather as one part of a bigger package of reforms to make our world more green, livable and fair. It should be combined with infrastructural changes to promote walking and biking, at least for shorter distances, as well as congestion fees and other measures to discourage car driving.
It is great to promote walking and biking as alternatives to driving, and of course these two means of transportation are the most ecological and healthy. But we must acknowledge that not everyone has the luxury of being able to bike or walk to work, school or their leisure activities. Kids, people with disabilities and elderly, people living in suburbs far away from their work and people living in cities where the weather just isn’t suitable for being outside most of the year – for all of them biking or walking is hardly ever an option and this is something that needs to be addressed.
When the number of vehicles increases, the fuel consumption will also increase. Nowadays, cars and other vehicles mostly carry only a single person. If thousand cars ply to carry 1000 people, the fuel consumption would be 10,000 l for a distance of 50 km, to and fro. Instead, in public transport buses, 40 people can travel in a bus and 25 buses can commute 1000 people to the same distance for just 500 to 700 l of fuel consumption. Then we could save on fuel consumption by 20-fold. Hence we should strive to increase, modernize and perfect our public
The transport should not cost us environment. People need to feel that they are a part of a significant change in order to be more enthusiastic in their participation. They have to be ‘in the loop’ and need to feel a responsibility that unfortunately they do feel at the moment. It cannot be ignored that things aren’t as dismal as they were, and many initiatives are taking place even as we read this, but there is no contesting the fact much more has to be done, and in much greater haste.
“Be the change that you want to see in the world”
— Mahatma Gandhi

Love

A flick of a moment and philosophies change...No matter how many love stories you watch and live a dreamy illusion but the real love might not always be that rosy...after shedding tears over innumerous movies wondering over their sad endings..The one that left me with a smile was fortunately a real life story...!!

UNTITLED

I seem sleepy in the translucent sky,
you cannot see me but you can hear my heart beats,
my first step, my first smile
I don't want to miss that day I'll see the glee in my father's eyes..
I'll make u proud;
Won't give you a single chance to frown..
I'll make u sketches; I'll paint it with white,
just let me see that day..the morning sunlight,
I want to smell the loamy soil.,
I'll build up a castle of all your hidden dreams and make them reach the seventh sky,
I can sense your fear
All your sighs

And I secretly know

That no matter what the world mumbles around

You don’t want to let me go.
The day I'll hold your hand a tear will roll off your eyes but with that rosy smile.
The sight that I can die for a million times,
so the choice is yours that do I deserve this life

I cannot dare to conceive my future

On heap of your sighs.

My wish to be born is no worth

If I have to trade it off with your dreams

I won’t crib and I won’t cry
Cause out of all the things that I fantasize...
the one that matters to me the most is your smile.

Change

Change

After sticking on to basics for too long I was still in the dilemma whether to brake the shell and move out.The constant ambiguity, the persistent confusion were analogous to the strangled wires of the headphone...the more I wanted to solve the trail,it all ended in vain the next day.But this was not the end I finally decided to "MOVE ON" a step ahead and now bought myself Wireless headset...!!

The change is what I believe in now..I have one life to live probably I won't stick on to things anymore probably I'll happily accept the changes...!!

Transitions are persistent and so are thoughts.... temporary are just the phases and all these phases summed up together is what is life...!!

My first post is my new insight...the one devoid of dilemma though it still doesn't promise me joys but now I don't care anymore cause I have taken my decision and all I need to do is to prove it right...!!!